Dazed and Confused

So I can't go into detail on here, but I feel my ENTIRE life has just been unraveling before my eyes. I have been keeping up with the Lord and feeling even more close to Him than ever before. Satan really really really makes me angry. Why do bad things have to happen to good people? I just don't understand what I did to deserve this. If I could go back and change the past few weeks...even the past months I would do it in a heartbeat. I've hurt so bad these past months. More than I've ever hurt in my entire life. I just don't understand. But I know that God is with me through this. I just wish my heart didn't hurt the way it does right now. So many things went wrong and not enough went right. I just want this all to go away. I don't want to hurt anymore. I can't write much more right now...but I'll be back.