The New Me.

Hello World.
My life has been getting pretty complicating lately. I just don't know how to tell the guy I was dating that I really don't wanna get back together with him. I'm trying to hold off the confrontation for as long as possible. But, on a lighter note. I've finally got a job! Although the job mostly sucks, I'm getting paid so I'm happy. :) I've dropped out of school so I can work full time in order to pay for more classes when I'm ready to go back. I've been making a lot of new friends and developing my friendships into relationships. For the first time in my life I feel accepted by my friends :) and it's the greatest feeling in the world.

This day is such a fricken waste of time! I started my class at 9 as usual...but our chef wasn't here yet...so the chef who came in told us we weren't allowed to start cooking yet...so we got our mise en place all ready and was ready to start our soups at 10. We've now been on "break" for an hour. This is sooo lame.....I could totally be at home...doing the same thing...and I'm fricken PAYING for this...bull!

Today is Friday!!! I am sooo happy that this week is over! My mom's been at her new job training all week so my sisters and I have had to sleep at my dad's house. Let's just say that I did not enjoy that. For starters, my dad and I just do not get along. Secondly, I'm allergic to his house. Like no joke. So yeah. And now that the week is over mom comes home tonight and that means I FINALLY get to sleep in my own bed!!! :D You have no idea how excited I am for that. Well, I have my culinary class today. I don't know why, but I really haven't enjoyed it that much lately. I just like, don't want to go to class. Before I loved class! But what happened? I really don't know... And on top of that, I'm starting to realize that I don't have as many "true" friends as I thought I did. I mean, don't get me wrong, I LOVE and ADORE the friends I have, I just wish I had more closer, intimate friends. Friends who I can confide in. Friends I trust and who trust me. I've been praying for a lot of things recently. I kinda feel like my life is once again unraveling before my eyes. Once I start to really enjoy life, something goes wrong, something not according to planned. I'm so used to living by a list that when something does arise I get startled and begin freaking out. I've tried trusting in the Lord more and more these days, and so far it's been going pretty well. I'm still waiting for some answers. But for now, just having Him close to me and knowing He loves me and wants the best for me is enough.

Today

So today I got to school only to find out that because I didn't turn in my add/drop sheet for my culinary class...that I wasn't allowed to attend class. So right now I am sitting on the computer trying to decide what to do with all this time I have.So there's a little view into my world as of this moment. :]

So must of you know by now, but I have recently started dating the most amazing guy in the entire world! His name is Quin and he is everything I've ever asked for in a relationship. Not only is he a Christian, but he's nice, sweet, caring, gentle, gracious, loving...not to mention totally adorable!!!! :] I am praying that this relationship will turn out to be much much better than my previous ones. One thing that is already different about this relationship is that we're "courting." And if you don't what that is, it means that we will have somebody else with us when we go out to help us stay pure and in line. :] After seeing the show 17 kids and counting, I always thought courting was stupid and a little weird. But after being asked to do it, I think it's the most romantic thing a couple could do! So yeah. I'm ecstatic at this moment in time and I can't wait to spend this wonderful day with him!! :]

With God, All Things Are Possible.















In All Things, Praise The Lord.

Yesterday was a good day. I didn't have to get up early to go to school. I still woke up pretty early so I could study and work on my speech which I still feel like I'm no where near being where I should be. So anywho, I downloaded a lot of new songs yesterday since my life pretty much revolves around music these days. I was so happy to find out that I would be going to the Chiropractor since my neck and back has been hurting me since the last time I went. As I was there the chiroman did what he always did, but this time was different. He gave me tests on my arms and legs to see if my feeling was the same on both sides of my body. They were not. He was concerned and asked me if I had been having trouble holding things and I had. I hadn't thought anything of it before this moment, but I guess I should have. Well, long story short, I need to go see a neurologist sometime soon to see what is causing me to feel less on my right side. So there's my day in a nutshell...not the best day ever...that's for sure. But, I'm praying that everything will be okay and that there isn't anything seriously wrong with me. Been down that road, ain't goin back. I'll just continue praying until the Lord shows me where I'm supposed to turn on this one. Well, I hope you all have a great Wednesday :]

Life In General As Of Now....

Hello everybody! :] I hope you all are having a great February...even though the weather doesn't seem to know what month it is these days. So...my life has gotten so so so complicating lately. I just can't even sort through all the stuff that has been going on. Long story short, I lost a best friend, lost a boyfriend to my best friend, and then gained that best friend back. Sound complicating?? Well, living it isn't a walk in the park either. I still don't know what her motives are of taking me back as a friend, and personally, I don't even know if I want her back as a friend after all the crap she said about me. I understand that she was "in love" with the guy I was dating, but aren't your friends supposed to come BEFORE guys? Maybe that's just in my book, but that's the way it SHOULD be.
College life just seems to get harder and harder with each passing day, not to mention the stress of not having a job and having to make ends meet. And to top all that off, I found a guy whom I like and he likes me back and although I'm not ready to date, I still want to date him. I guess only time will tell what comes of this relationship but for now we're just friends. :]
That's all I have time to write, so I hope you all have a great week! :]