The Worst Possible Day I Could Ever Imagine

Soo...where to start? I don't even know. This whole day has just turned out to be a nightmare. I'm not gonna get into detail about what went down today, but I am going to vent. I've been crying for almost a total of about 6 hours now, and every time I start to cry again, I wonder where all the tears come from. I'm almost certain every time I stop that I have no more to cry. I just wish everything could stop and rewind the way you can rewind a movie. I wish the world was like a movie so you could fast forward through all the bad stuff that you feel you can't deal with anymore and get to the part when you become happy again. As of now, I feel like I'm never going to be happy again. I just wish that all the hurt would go away. You'd think that God would be nicer and not let so much happen to one person in the course of a couple hours, but you are wrong. I think I've been through more hurting today then ever in my entire life and when I think it's finally over, it all just comes rushing back at me in waves that I feel I can't get over. It's like drowning in the ocean with nothing to save you. I feel like if I just give up on life now it would be so much easier then having to be reminded of all this day in and day out. Have you ever lost your boyfriend to your best friend? If so, then you know exactly how I'm feeling right now. I just can't shake it. It's like...I can't even describe what it feels like. Well, I guess I'll be done now...