So yesterday started off to be just another normal day in the life of myself. I woke up and did my chores, went to the movies and saw Mall Cop, came home, picked up my sister from her friend's house, ate dinner, and then went to a friend's house. I started talking to my boyfriend and we were having, what I thought, to be a pretty good conversation. And then...his roommate got on the computer and started telling me how i should break up with him because he's hurting so much. And how I would be better off without him. It really broke my heart that she would say such things to me about him. But, when I brought it up with him and asked him to ask her to stop...he didn't. I told him that I thought we should break up and just be friends...and he was PERFECTLY FINE with that idea. It was like he never loved me at all. I was just some other girl to him. He didn't seem to care if he was with me or not. I just don't understand why I am constantly finding guys that treat me like crap. I try to find the one's that I think will treat me right and I always end up getting hurt. I think I just really need to take a break from guys all together and continue to draw closer to the Lord. For I know that no matter how many guys come and go in my life, God will NEVER leave me, or treat me unfairly, or expect me to be something that I'm not. I'm happy with who I am and I REFUSE to change for somebody other than myself. I know what I need and it's not a guy I need to define who I am. I am a princess in the Lord's eyes, and I think that I deserve to be treated like one.
Girls have it hard enough as it is with all the models and television and publicity telling them that if they don't look or act like this then they aren't beautiful or worth the time of day. But there IS a guy out there who will love you and cherish you and treat you like the princess you are. You just have to STOP looking, and let God direct him to you. You will know when you meet him and you will enjoy being with him and won't feel insecure about who you are, because you can be yourself and he will love you no matter what. So just slow down, take your time, and trust in the Lord to guide your paths. You will NEVER have to walk alone as long as you have the Lord by your side. :]
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wow candace. that was some pretty amazing writing!! i know you've been hurt with all of this boyfriend stuff, but i'm glad you know that God will always be with you and that He will never leave you or forsake you. I love you so much and i will definitely be praying for you babe!! keep trusting in Christ! you ARE worth it!! :)
haha. thanks girl! you're such a good friend! i'm glad i met you! :]
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